I'm not the best person in the world. But I'm also not the worst. But I know I have.. Issues. I feel... abandoned very easy. Things in my past didn't go the way I would want them to go and yet I'm still learning from things still that happened YEARS ago. It still effects me. In some ways it's positive.

I'm a stronger person because of what happened. Yet some of these positives turn negative.

I became dependent on me. And only me. Yet that turns negative really quickly.

Like with Ben... I don't trust him. Well.. I do, but not 100% because of my past. Let alone Ben and mine's past (which isn't the best). And it just sucks, because I can't change it, no matter how hard I try to.